Life as a fighter ♥

I might as well just through my life in the bin. Every day, thoughts I want to disappear cross my mind. I was always a fighter, but at the moment I just can't figure out a way for a day without sadness. I make it even worse writing it down because I actually ignore it over the day - but with that headache pounding in my sad and tired head, I really have to admit it's there. I want to stay alive. I do, believe me. But people who don't experience these feelings can't imagine how I'm feeling. I just want these thoughts to go away. I'm too bored at school to be bothered with other things than broken friendships and death. Nobody knows but I try to look sad at school so somebody knows... but nobody notices. Except I tthink my very best friend would. But only shortly, she lived on the other side of the world and I have to keep her as a secret...

Please, I do not want any charity. I'm only writing this to get my mind sorted. Thanks for reading and I'd love some comments. So if you've got a bit of time and you're bored, start typing!
I'm also not going to.tell you my name, but I can tell you I'm thirteen and come from Germany.